bittersweet

i never thought about
how much you affected me,
and i never really cared
about what ever happened
because you were always there
for me
for everyone
and it was amazing
you were the greatest

but that was just
the calm before the storm
you lost your mind
lost in a blind fit of anger
i still remember
the hatred shining bright
in both your eyes,
the sharp tone
in your once-sweet voice

it hurts me to think
about you
about us
about back then
about how you might be now
because you made me feel
like i was important
and something special
but now i feel like
i had nothing
when i had almost everything
i could've ever wanted;
your words continue to ring
in my ears for an eternity
and no matter what i do,
i can't forget
about you.